At present many individuals have through the critical stage of knowing who they really are, because even they themselves doesn’t exactly knows what they wanted and what they are looking for since they haven’t known themselves quite enough.
Perhaps it takes some time to determine oneself on who they truly are, also having been in a situation were in we ourselves have made helps us recognize who we are and our own limitations. I have recognize myself early on my years, which was a great time for me to change to something on which will make others be comfortable about myself. Just looking back at my past experiences I have taken the path of separating away from my parents at the age of thirteen. It was my choice and perhaps I could say I have been through a hard decision at that age. I took the opportunity of taking a sectarian scholarship in the other city just before I have graduated my elementary. That scholarship are suppose to be intended for those who are very poor individuals around the country who can’t even afford to buy meals at three times a day. I belong to a middle class family who can provide on what we want with my father having his work of managing Beach Resorts located at Samal, Philippines and also tending some mango plantation and mom being a house keeper and also have her own semi-huge store and some extra works. Since, I have made my mind of availing that scholarship although mom and dad could send me to a good school for high school; I have lied all about my background my parents was fully unaware about what I was doing, during the background scanning and even used my nanny’s home address which was off city, for I was sure that that’s the only way I cold get the inside that sophisticated private sectarian school since it was manage by nuns who is could the sisters of Mary. I was never been thinking all about what’s going to happened next when I ‘m inside that campus. I have admitted that my parents were at first too mad on me for doing so, for they too don’t want that I will be afar from them. Since I was firm enough and prove to them that I can stand on what ever decision I made even at that young age, they too respected my decision because it’s all done and I’m on my way to that school. Although staying on that sectarian live-in school was way too tiresome, and brings me so much home-sickness for I wanted to go home badly thinking on my 4 years that I will be living on that campus without contact to the outside world, all I have to do is study to meet up the grade brackets, sleep and eat this was the routine of everything. I never quit on those situations. Besides having meet up with too many persons inside the school whoa re of different personality traits makes my life on those years so competitive, for which I don’t exactly knows who are my true friends and who are truly those persons whom I could lean on when I’m down.
I have known my attitude-centric personality traits much better than I do, that I have the personality which were so much different from the others. That experience during my early years was a great help to know myself better so that I too could communicate with the persons around me without any barrier which could give too much gaps on establishing a relationship. I have been very open and found myself very easy to adjust on the authority without any rebellion as long as I know that it do no harm on my part. I have develop my self confident much more than I usually have before which is also giving me advantages on the present. I am also an open individual who does not just rely on the situations that ia have been facing but also finds some aspects that could give justification on things. Forgiveness is shall we say one of the traits in which some hardly posses, but I say it’s easy for me for I never kept anger in, it vanishes as time passed by, my anger would be gone for a moment of silence or just some seconds while giving myself some space to breath on. When I’m thinking on doing something which I really like to do, whatever the circumstances or how hectic things that I’m into, I really do it and never waits for tomorrow as long as I know I can do it on the span of time that would make my work accomplished for the day. I’m someone who never gives up on the critics of others as long as I knows there is something that is yet to happened I never fail myself, but if it did so I’m so willing to admit that I have been into a mistake and would find out on what point do I fail, so that on the next time of opportunity excellence is excepted. Having been into a difficult circumstances while doing something don’t affect my whole day, I mean what happened during the day remains on that day unless it has something to do for tomorrow.
Some of my close friends say I’m cold especially when it comes on talking about relationship with someone. That is also one of the things that I have found in my personality, I’m not easily attracted yet I could appreciate somebody perhaps because I don’t want to try to and it’s exactly not on my mind yet. Also I’m less affectionate when it comes to showing how I really felt, for I am afraid that somebody’s going to know whether I felt bad besides showing love is not in my line of affection. Somehow I have said to I love you phrase to my parents but only on letters that I was sending them while the time that I was still away, for me saying this things is so much awkward on my part since I’m am not into it. I believe actions speaks louder than words and I bet my aren’t already knows that I love them as much as they love me as their daughter.
Going forward to this days I have already found several of my personality traits. On which the personality test that I have during my technoprenuership class have greatly help me to also determine who I am when it comes about talking some business or being an entrepreneur. The result of having a mark of “somewhat entrepreneurial” was f great help on my part and perhaps boost my confidence of having my own business in the future. I find myself much better than I do before. I have even ask to myself, “Is this really who I am?.” Yes, that question is wide enough for the answers lie only on me and on knowing what makes me a better person in which I will be thankful of. I have found that test to tricky for its though for the questions are of the same idea it’s just its being ask on different ways and of different situations. I could say that consistency is one the traits that I also have. Having the aim of making my own money in the future is one of the things that I have put inside my mind and that what ever happened I should have enjoyed my single years before getting into a family so that I could provide a better living. Also learning from my mistakes is one thing that I have possess in which I know it could also give me some lesson so that for the future there shall be no more of that same mistake that I have committed. Being an outgoing individual is also one on my personality trait; I never find any difficulty in connecting with those individuals who are older than me. Passion on my works is another thing that I have in myself I love all that I have been doing, and also optimistic on the ideas and any suggestions of others, for I know that listening to them would not do any harm to us, instead they could make our performance better for every critic that they made, it shows that they care on us and they noticed what we are doing, and somehow influence them to do something for their own self. I am also communicative and approachable I could tell to a person whether I like what he or she is doing without the fear that they my not going to talk to me again, as long as I know that I have o been doing anything harm against somebody. If anything goes wrong while on the middle of something I never loose control of myself and still stay calm and serene I never blame others for the mistake instead, I motivate myself to do more and say something like, “ you got the talent and skills, you can do i!, you can do it! Because if others can do why can’t I?.” This line is also of great help to me as to overcome so much tension and while on the point of loosing my self-confidence and hope while in the middle of something. I also have the side of being creative like making designs which displays glamour that usually leads to most of friends calling like, “you’re to glamorous!.” The only thing I could say is that we really don’t need extravagant clothes which displays the best clothing brands all we need is the elegance and the positive outlook in life that whether we wear brands like Prada and Gucci as long as the self-stem and the trust to oneself is their we could make those less valuable ones shines just like the valuables.
Cooping up with myself I am convince on the positive outlook of sayings, quotations, proverbs and poems. Merely reading and understanding on what is hidden behind the surface has no equal worth especially if we find its deeper meaning deep with in us. One of the lines that captivated me most was the lines of our school founder msgr. Aloysius Philip Swartz saying, “My children you are not created to be fat little ducks waddling on mad, but to be eagles soaring up high.” Having these lines in my mind and heart gives me the strength and courage to be much more a better person to walk the path of obedience and patience. Besides in keep in myself that those persons who can’t accept me at my worst doesn’t deserve me at my best. This is like opening up a containers’ cover so that what’s inside is seen, nourished and be given the time to show what they are capable of to make happiness out of dullness.
Whoever we are and wherever we came from and whether what personal traits we posses we are of the same goal, which is to be being unique and make something extravagant out of ideas and innovations.
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